Back...and better than ever?

Before I begin to get into the meat of the blog again, please allow me to explain my 7 month absence.

I never wanted to be one of those bloggers who gained a bunch of followers and then disappeared but when my life flipped so drastically in January, I needed to step away, be grateful and see how my mind and soul changed. Would getting some success change my mind? Would I forget where I came from and what I had accomplished? Would I forget the suffering and the hardships that lead me to start the blog in the first place?

After 7 months away, a few things became clearer. I have had more contact with my teacher, I have had more success with work and more success with interpersonal relationships. I have re-connected with a love from long ago and I have learned who my friends are and were.

I have also realized that some people are posers and fakers when it comes to what I THOUGHT they were bring into my life. Some people were hurt by my decision to follow my path and accept my journey--and some were let down. It has been a tough lesson for me to learn that we each have our own Karma and if my decisions affect someone else like that, it is likely because that person put expectations on me that I wasn't aware of or I failed to communicate my own expectations of myself.

In connecting with my teacher, Zhou on such an ethereal level, I have been both humbled, surprised and even a tad disbelieving - but I have finally accepted his presence and my ability to transport myself to his plane and allow his teachings to continue.

The main message that I get from him all the time is that I am a student of his, but I still must be a teacher myself. I MUST continue the blog and I MUST continue to be an example of the Dharma and what comes with that.

"Even though I learn, so shall I continue to teach."

I thank you for the many emails I received and the outpouring of love and hope that you gave me last winter. But that is the past and we must not live there. I am grateful, but I am in the present. I am in the moment. I am where I am supposed to be. If I wasn't meant to be here, I wouldn't be.

Be nice to each other and thank you for coming back to see me!

PEACE TO YOU!
Kit