Kit's Quote of the Day----"Don't just Say 'I love you' - Be willing to prove it...EVERYDAY!"

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Mind and Body Connected

It has been a long long time since I dedicated myself to getting my physical body in the kind of shape that my spiritual being is striving to become.

The mind and body in concert with each other is a beautiful thing.

Back in the gym has given me a new way of handling some things in my real life. It has given me a goal, a pastime and a reason.

I am going to be moving back home to Oregon in a few months. I am going to quit the radio business for good. I am using it only as a paycheck. Though I am good at it, and it is second nature to me; I am just not passionate about it anymore. I go through the motions because that is what I CAN do in order to succeed. It doesn't challenge me - it  doesn't inspire me - it doesn't move me the way it used to.

The only thing calls me is the chance to use the next 30 years of my life (as that is probably all I have left) to inspire people to become more than they are allowing themselves to be. I want to help people to understand their paths, improve their outlook and become healthier in their mind as well as their body.

I have the knowledge, I have the education, I have the skills. It is time to put them all into motion.

I will hurt people when I leave here. They won't understand. They will be angry. That is on them. I can't live such a meaningless, shallow existence. I can't force others to follow my path and I can't follow theirs.

One day, I might find someone who's path coincides with mine. But that is not now.

Sunday, March 9, 2014

I've been away. My mind has been at play

Turns out that I am more human than I want to be and more fallible that I had hoped that I was.

I disappeared from my blog for various reasons. The primary being that I felt like I didn't need it, or rather, it didn't need me anymore. I felt like I was not giving it proper attention and therefore it was wilting and didn't care.

So I left. I was gone from writing because my mind was elsewhere. It was with women, work, family and ego.

Lesson learned.

In the last few months, I have learned new things about myself.

  1. I thought I hated being alone. That's not true. What I hated was loneliness. Being alone is actually ok. 
  2. I am not happy being away from my son. I am away because of material reasons. If you are a reader of this blog, you know what I went through a year or so ago...I am terrified that I will go through that again if I leave the comfort of my current situation--but I am also aware that the only part of my life that IS happy is my wallet. Everything else is for shit. But that is ok. That is the WAY that it is supposed to be right now. 
  3. I have come to realize that the things that make me the happiest have nothing to do with anyone else. It is ALL on me.
So what now? Do I continue the path? Do I wake up tomorrow and accept? 

No. I do not. 

"It is what it is" - That damned saying that has been so misunderstood. It means simply that today is today. Understand it and move on. It has NOTHING to do with acceptance. Just because you understand that something is right or wrong in your life, doesn't mean that you have to accept it or like it. 

Take the steps. Release control of the outcome, but take the steps nonetheless. 

You will unveil the answers that are already within you. 

Peace to you. I will be here more. I will stay true to it and to myself.


Tuesday, August 6, 2013

What I like. Thanks for asking.

For the first time since I started this blog, someone has emailed me and asked me what I LIKE in life. Instead of asking about the path, they asked about me.

Well, I try to take ego out of things, but it was nice to get the question. So here we go....

"I love your blog, but I have a question. Does being on this 'path' or religion mean that you have to give up everything fun? I mean, what do you like? What do you do for fun? You don't just sit around in silence all day, right? You seem like a good guy...Tell me about you."

First, let me clear up some mis-conceptions. My path is not a religion. It is not a systematic path of following a doctrine that someone wrote down a few hundred years ago. It is not an interpretation of someone else's ideals or views. It is simply and unveiling. It is a process of removing the cover to reveal the truth that has ALWAYS existed without opinion.

On this path, let me make one thing clear: No one can teach you anything. You already know the answers. All a "teacher" can do is REVEAL the truth. The truth is there. Just reach out for it. Close your eyes, shut up for 10 minutes and it will come to you. I promise.

So what do I "like" and what do I do for fun?

How about a list.

  • Oklahoma University Football
  • Getting tattoos
  • Girls with tattoos 
  • Girls who can rock a t-shirt and jeans
  • Casual street fashion
  • Sports on TV
  • Good Beer (but never over-do it...not anymore!)
  • Music
  • Playing my guitar
  • Playing video games with my son
  • Earthy smells
  • Long drives
  • Going to the ocean
  • Dreaming
I am a normal guy. I curse a little too much. I make mistakes. I don't always reach my full potential. I have flaws. BUT...I love myself. I love my path. And I love life.

Thanks for asking---That was fun. As much as I work on putting away my ego, it's nice that someone gave a damn. 

Thursday, August 1, 2013

When things end...things begin

A few months ago, I (we) made a decision to pursue a long simmering relationship. Today that relationship ended. And the funny thing is that I am not as sad as I thought I might be. I won't get into the details of the how and why--I will just say that it HAD to happen. It HAD to be pursued and it HAD to end.

Don't get me wrong. I am sad at the WAY it ended. Assumptions and undeserved distrust are not things that anyone wants in their life. I am sad for the loss of some energetic fulfillment. I am sad for the loss of a specific kind of love that was given. But I am not sad that it ended.

Living this life, I have discovered that I am able to overcome loss and handle transitions better than I used to. Why? Because I have learned to remove my ego from it and just accept things on their own merit. Endings and beginnings are all a part of life. The circle continues.

I will always love her and care about her, but a romantic relationship was just not meant for us. There were TOO MANY issues to overcome. And that's ok. We were not on the same path---It doesn't make her a bad person--It doesn't make me a failure. It just means that it was not mean to be. It is the natural path of things.

How can I be sad about that?

All endings are the beginning to something else.

Peace to you---Be nice to each other.


Monday, July 15, 2013

To pass the word, or to wait....The Zen of decisions.

This morning I was greeted with a DM on Twitter from someone claiming to be a literary agent. This person suggested that MACHO ZEN would make a great memoir/non-fiction/spiritual help book.

Flattery aroused my first reaction which was all ego driven. Then I sat with it and decided that step one would be to check out this person and see if they were on the up and up.

Sure enough, this person appears to be an actual agent. Now, we will note that even though they suggested that my blog would make a good book, at no point did they offer to represent me or any potential book, so I am not sure what the DM actually means.

My next inclination is to just allow the river to flow and see what happens. The Universe will always send you signs and put things in your path. 90% of us fail to recognize these signs--or we talk ourselves out of them. And my teacher, DID just send me a message to "share the wisdom"---As MLH would say, "All the signs are pointing you in that direction."

However, if you have read all of the postings, you will note that this is the 2nd time that I have been "approached" with this idea. Nothing came of that time because I didn't pursue it properly--therefore we reach our moment of Zen--our QUESTION.

How much effort is required for us to continue to follow the flow of the river? How much would be "forcing the issue?" What constitutes the act of allowing something to happen and what does it mean to manipulate the situation to your advantage? DO we step in and move the flow in a specific direction, are we messing up the way the Universe wants it to go?

The answer of course is:


WE are the Universe and the Universe is us. There is a difference between fighting AGAINST the signs and RECOGNIZING the signs and taking the steps that the Universe is placing in front of  us. Being in the flow of the river, being in the current does not mean that we let go and sink to the bottom. There is still effort required. We stay with the flow, but as a rudder, we have to move back and forth, maneuvering through the rocks.

Too many times, we can confuse a simple effort to make things happen, with interference. Remember we are going WITH the flow, not turning upstream.

So will I pursue this avenue? If the signs keep leading me there, then I will have no choice.

Only what CAN happen, WILL happen....

Be nice to each other